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just because she comes off strong doesnt mean she didnt fall asleep crying, and even though she acts like nothing's wrong, maybe she is just really good at lying. VIA MOLS :D

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Friday, May 20, 2011

let's reflect.

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let's reflect. lets say. round off okay. im almost 20 now, assuming that an average person lives up till 80 years old. which means to say im almost done with one quarter of my life. what are the achievements that i have in my life? i had my butt seated down, and after hours of thinking. i came with the conclusion that i have no achievements at all in my life. minus away the bursaries and primary school ug company awards.

yes. my life is so so wasted. so wasted that i feel somebody would have lead my life better than i did if they have a chance.

im no good at my studies.
i cant do any sports.
i have got no talent at doing anything.
i have no skills that i can support myself with.
i suck at relationships.

so demoralized that i feel so useless.
so demoralized that i see completely no light in my future.

though poly life is ending very soon, perhaps too late to have regrets. yes. friends are lovable, event experience can be fun. i seriously fear im going to be jobless in the future, nobody is going to hire me, when there are ALOT more people having the same diploma cert as me, better results as me, maybe i will still be surviving on doing part time jobs everywhere. and even if i really had a job, i have a feeling i'll be stuck at that position with the same amount of salary for years, be on that job till my hair becomes white.

university after poly? i dont know either, yah. i know getting further studies does good for one's career since theres diploma graduates everywhere. money's one thing. what to pursue for is another thing. definitely a change in course of study? direction-less. i'm tired of juggling work and school at the same time. even if i sign up for night classes. it also means work and school. i really dont know.

seen less rich people who cannot afford schooling like my dad, doing hard labour, just to keep the family going. how hard this is, then blaming self for being not able to give their kids things that other families can afford to give. yet trying to give us what he can, holidays, whatever he can. this has definitely made me to set my mind on getting a good job and giving him life that i feel he truly deserved about years of hardwork. im a big girl now, to lighten his load. which is why im now taking two tuition assignments and another home base data entry job apart from school. yes im mad, but i think i can pull through. just one year more.

i always feel that life is against me, i complain, i whine. but im trying to be thankful in life for whatever i have. thank you to whoever up there, who has a plan for me.

God will make a way
when there seems to be no way.
he works in ways we cannot see
he will make a way for me.
he will be my guide
hold me closely to his side
with love and strength for each new day
he will make a way for me.

=)
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sometimes the best way to hold on to something

is to let it go.

life is like a mirror, we get the best results when we smile at it.. (=
Profile TANZHIXINZORINE is her big name! she turns a year older every jan. she loves shopping, gossips, kbox, movies, drama serials, food!! :D she makes super dumb jokes and force people to laugh at her jokes, loves her ah gong. her family and friends. trying very hard to overcome her laziness. :D just because she comes off strong doesnt mean she didnt fall asleep crying, and even though she acts like nothing's wrong, maybe she is just really good at lying. VIA MOLS :D Plurk.com follow me on PLURK!! CLICK HERE!:D Music Playlist at MixPod.com is on this page^^ Tagboard Exits PEIQIN:D MEIQI:D WAISIONG SHEENA:D BRO:D LIWEN:D PEARLIE VANESSA:D YICONG JIANSHENG WEIQI MICHELLE SIYU WENDY YANBIN WEIJIE CHEEMENG KELLY JASLYN OLGA JIENING XUELING LARISSA YANZHU JIALE LIKOON:D SYAIRAH WANTING JOHN RONGQIANG WENXUAN ZHIXUAN EVELYN:D MARILYN MEILIN QIANMEI POHKHEE YINGYI VENNICE JINGKAI ZIHAO YUKI CASSANDRA JIAFENG ALICIA NICOLE Archives March 2009 April 2009 May 2009 June 2009 July 2009 August 2009 September 2009 October 2009 November 2009 December 2009 January 2010 February 2010 March 2010 April 2010 May 2010 June 2010 July 2010 August 2010 September 2010 October 2010 November 2010 December 2010 January 2011 February 2011 March 2011 April 2011 May 2011 June 2011 July 2011 September 2011 November 2011 December 2011 Credits ©Glamouresque.	Friday, May 20, 2011 let's reflect. via ImagesandWords let's reflect. lets say. round off okay. im almost 20 now, assuming that an average person lives up till 80 years old. which means to say im almost done with one quarter of my life. what are the achievements that i have in my life? i had my butt seated down, and after hours of thinking. i came with the conclusion that i have no achievements at all in my life. minus away the bursaries and primary school ug company awards. yes. my life is so so wasted. so wasted that i feel somebody would have lead my life better than i did if they have a chance. im no good at my studies. i cant do any sports. i have got no talent at doing anything. i have no skills that i can support myself with. i suck at relationships. so demoralized that i feel so useless. so demoralized that i see completely no light in my future. though poly life is ending very soon, perhaps too late to have regrets. yes. friends are lovable, event experience can be fun. i seriously fear im going to be jobless in the future, nobody is going to hire me, when there are ALOT more people having the same diploma cert as me, better results as me, maybe i will still be surviving on doing part time jobs everywhere. and even if i really had a job, i have a feeling i'll be stuck at that position with the same amount of salary for years, be on that job till my hair becomes white. university after poly? i dont know either, yah. i know getting further studies does good for one's career since theres diploma graduates everywhere. money's one thing. what to pursue for is another thing. definitely a change in course of study? direction-less. i'm tired of juggling work and school at the same time. even if i sign up for night classes. it also means work and school. i really dont know. seen less rich people who cannot afford schooling like my dad, doing hard labour, just to keep the family going. how hard this is, then blaming self for being not able to give their kids things that other families can afford to give. yet trying to give us what he can, holidays, whatever he can. this has definitely made me to set my mind on getting a good job and giving him life that i feel he truly deserved about years of hardwork. im a big girl now, to lighten his load. which is why im now taking two tuition assignments and another home base data entry job apart from school. yes im mad, but i think i can pull through. just one year more. i always feel that life is against me, i complain, i whine. but im trying to be thankful in life for whatever i have. thank you to whoever up there, who has a plan for me. God will make a way when there seems to be no way. he works in ways we cannot see he will make a way for me. he will be my guide hold me closely to his side with love and strength for each new day he will make a way for me. =) Labels: another you gan er fa post, emotional, life, random thoughts, shit things, tumblrs
sometimes the best way to hold on to something is to let it go.